Dear Camden
My little boy, I have so much to say to you and not nearly enough time to. I want you to know how happy I was when I found out about you. I couldn't believe I was having a boy. I had so much fun buying you things and picking out clothes. I wanted everything to be ready for you. I thought about you so much and that will never change. I will always remember hearing your heartbeat for the first time, feeling you move and seeing you, knowing how perfect you were going to be. I always wondered what you would look like and if you would be as handsome as your father is, and I'm glad I got the chance to find out that you are. You are my perfect little boy and always will be. I want you to know how loved and wanted you are. I feel so cheated that I can't know you longer. I can't hold you, feed you, touch you, I can't read to you, watch you take your first step, smile, or hug you and give you a kiss goodnight. The list of things is endless. You need to know how much we love you. Your three sisters and the rest of our families. Losing you is such a big loss for all of us. I can't express to you how sad I am that I can't be your mommy everyday the way I want to be. You will always be in my heart and will have a piece of me forever. I will take your memory where ever I go. I love you more then anything and I know you know that.You will always be my little boy and now my little angel. I am glad your at peace and that I know your safe. Someday we will see each other again and when that day comes I will hold you and never let go or have to say goodbye again. My prayers are with you my sweet boy.
I love you, Mom
Dear Camden,
Mommy touched your cheek and held your tiny hand, two hearts as one.
Daddy held you close and rocked you in his strong arms, his son for eternity.
Papa saw your sweet face and love streaked his.
Nana kissed your small forehead and love filled a broken heart.
You are too perfect for words, and missed and loved by so many.
When I look at Laicey I see you,
I think of you when I kiss her soft cheek, and I do it twice.
When I cry for you I close my eyes and remember,
love is never lost, it lasts a lifetime.
love, Nana
(A letter from his sister Brenna, age 11)
Dear Camden,
I'm really going to miss you little brother,
Now that I don't have your little face to kiss and smother.
I knew that you were going to be handsome and smart,
And now I can't see you but your still in my heart.
I wanted to be there when you first walked.
I wanted to be there when you first talked.
I know that some day I will get to see you,
and I know that you will get to see me to.
Everyone misses you little brother,
Because there will never be another,
Just like you.
I miss you alot. Love your sister,
Brenna
(A letter from his sister Brooke, age 9)
I'm sorry that Camden passed away. I am also sad that this has happened to Camden. I also miss him as much as you do. I have made some fake flowers out of tissue paper for Camden's grave. Right now Camden is in heaven. I also wrote a poem about Camden. When the stone is made and we go I'm going to bring a surprise for Camden's grave. I'm going to say a prayer for Camden.
love, Brooke
Dear Camden,
A cousin that I will never know,
A friendship that will never grow,
I will miss what we should have had,
playing together, being happy and even being sad,
one little baby so safe and sound,
the other in heaven with angels around,
so much in common, yet so far apart
without you my life is hard to start,
we will always have a special bond,
because of this you will make me strong,
I thank you Camden for watching over me,
A true angel that you just can't see.
love, Eldan